If You Do What You’ve Always Done…..

You guys, I need to post more. I can’t believe I haven’t posted since August!

One of my new year’s resolutions was to post more.

So much for that……

I’ve been killing it on the other resolutions though, so I call that a win.

2017 Resolutions

Get braces

Lose Weight (20 lbs)

Self Love

Save More Money

Cook More/Eat out Less

Eat Better

Move More

Meditate

Work on my Blog

I know that making resolutions are basically a joke, but I still do them every year. I am a “drive for results” kinda person, so I think this helps motivate me to achieve goals. Anyone else do New Year’s Resolutions still?

Last year I made some resolutions, but I don’t think I stuck to one of them. It was a difficult time for me mentally and physically, to be honest. I got super depressed because I gained a little over 20lbs and work just left me exhausted.

Side note: For those of you who don’t know me, I’m just over 5 feet, so 20lbs is A LOT on my small frame.

I felt horrible about myself and kept bringing myself down about it. My tipping point was our trip to Thailand and none of my summer clothes fit me to take with. It kinda brought me down on my AMAZING vacation. I kept harping on myself for letting myself get that way.

I finally realized at the end of the year I was just being lazy. I thought I was taking care of myself, but in reality:

 I wasn’t.

I wasn’t working out like I used to. I was sitting at my desk all day not moving. When I did work out, I was getting in 30-40 minutes a day all at once, but that was the only exercise/movement I was getting ALL DAY. I was eating SHIT.

Not literally, but when it comes down to it, it might as well have been.

I would come home too tired from my job (and not sleeping well the night before – hello dehydration!) and not want to cook. This made me extra hate on myself because I felt like a horrible wife for not cooking for my husband.

We’d then go out to eat, get take out or order a pizza.

Ah! The convenience!

Afterwards, we’d just veg out on the couch watching anime re-runs or catch up on missed TV shows. I was literally not moving ALL DAY and thinking 2 slices of pizza was “in moderation” like every other night.

I finally looked in the mirror and decided that I was done feeling like shit. I was done being this person I didn’t even recognize in the mirror. I didn’t want to go out in public or hang out with people anymore. I only wanted to eat fast food (something I had never done until then). I only wanted to sleep (I was going to bed at 8pm every night, sometimes 7:30!) and struggled to get up in the mornings. My skin was breaking out. My hair was breaking (even falling out actually) and looked gross and dull.

Maybe some of that was just getting older. I don’t know.

All I know was that I was a hot mess and I was done feeling like that.

I wanted to be the person I was a year or two ago. I wanted to be happy with myself and get back to doing the things I loved doing! I wanted to fit into my fabulous wardrobe that is currently sitting in a spare bedroom closet of mine.

I needed to make the decision to not continue in those ways and stick to it.

Always

I love this quote.

I kept trying to lose the weight and feel better about myself, but I was still doing the very things that were setting me back. I needed to get real and do something different.

I’m happy to say, I’m on the right track to getting back to where I am. I’ve had some great success with being smart about my choices and sticking to my New Year’s resolutions.

But I think I’ll save that for another post…….

XOXO

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